Faces

One thing I can always count on so far from Liam is a good laugh everyday. He makes more funny faces in a day than I can count. Some of my favorites are his 'mad face' when he is crying. It is so sweet, I have a bad feeling that he's going to get what he wants in life (only from his Mom, of course). I also like it when he laughs, and doesn't even realize he's laughing. The very best thing about having my new schedule of only working 3 days a week and having Courtney and Liam there everyday is the amount of face time that I get with the whole family more often than I deserve. Face time is a long lost value in our culture. We are so good at instantly mass communicating now that genuine, personal interaction is undervalued and overwhelmed by technology. That is one of the reasons I've started blogging (other than the obvious desire to listen to myself talk). But I hope it will cut down on my "have to check my email" attitude so I can spend that time talking to family, friends and especially God, who to my knowledge doesn't have a cell phone or email account. I hope we don't fall into this trap of not spending quality time with people because we don't have to in order to get the necessary information to get us through the day. Remember before cell phones when if someone wasn't home to left a message on an answering machine and were happy to be called back two days later. And then people got mobile and we could expect to be called back within a half of a day. Now that isn't good enough and we send a text message and know that we are going to get an immediate response and if we don't, we just don't know what we'll do with ourselves. Don't get me wrong, I'm a texter and the technology in place is wonderful for many reasons, emergencies are a great example. But people had to make a lot more executive decisions before we could get so much instant 360 degree feedback on every thought. Let's get back to decision making. I'm going to make the decision to stop writing this and go hang out with Courtney and Liam. I'm interested in a good conversation and a good laugh. Cheers,

Right Where it Belongs

So much is changing in our lives everyday. We've gone from looking at life in terms of 6 or 12 months to every single moment is important. Liam does something new everyday. Today he took his first bottle, without hesitation. That got Courtney excited for obvious reasons. Our new favorite hobby is to just sit and watch and try to make sure we don't miss anything. One of my favorite things to think about are his little hands. Actually, his hands seem quite big to me for his age, but relative to ours, they're small. Anyway, when one of us is holding him or feeding him and he lays his hand on of our hands, it feels like there is such a love transferring from one to the other. There is a total reliance of one hand to the other. As if, for this moment, that is exactly where his hands belong. We know it won't always be that way, so we have to cherish it while it lasts. So far so good.

Sweet Emotions

As I write...my sweet, handsome man lies on my chest just as he is in this picture with his Daddy. Feeling his tiny, warm body on my mine and listening to his whispers of breath is the most precious gift. Having Liam come into our lives has changed our lives so much already and it's wonderful. Literally, my body is not big enough to contain all of the emotions I feel on minute by minute basis. There is an entirely new human being on this earth that is half the man I love and adore and half myself. I just can't comprehend it at times. The love I have for him is unlike anything I could have imagined. Of course I knew I would absolutely adore him and want to eat him up, but there is almost an aching feeling that goes along with the depth of the love I feel for him. I've never been able to stare at someone so long and not grow weary of it. It's amazing to know that I have a son. It's the greatest feeling. Then, to top off those emotions...the love I feel for my husband now has changed as well. Well, there's an addition I should say instead of change. All of the love and adoration I had for him before are still present. However, now there's an entirely new layer. Watching him stare at Liam as he holds him or to see him JUMP at the opportunity to change his diaper just to be involved makes me love him in a whole different way. I knew he would be a great father just because of the wonderful man and husband he already is, but I don't think I quite expected him to enjoy it as much as it appears he does. I can tell he just gushes for Liam. And that makes me fall in love with him even more. So, like I said....my body just isn't big enough to contain all of the emotions I feel as a new mom. Most would call all of this hormones. :) I just like to think of them as sweet emotions.