Surprise! It's Courtney writing today. I am not as talented as my husband at blogging, but this morning I have the urge to do so.
I was just reading something this morning that made me stop for a minute and even though Thanksgiving has already passed, a huge wave of thankfulness just swept through my body. And while it brings such joy and peace to my heart, it also makes me ache for others. Either those who aren't as fortunate or for those who are but for some reason can't see what they have.
Most of you who know Jarod, Liam and me well know that we have 2 houses (one that won't sell), 3 cars (again...one that we need to sell), a new baby (NO!, not for sale), downsized careers, maternity leave and we are trying to open a business at the same time. Money is getting tight and stress levels are rising. Just this past week the stress has really started setting in. Even to the point where Jarod and I got frustrated with each other (which honestly happens like once a year). It's the first time in a while that we have stress to the level of our chests tightening and I have to say I somewhat like it. Yep. I said I like it.
It has made me think and pray and analyze and think and pray. All of this thinking, praying and analyzing has brought me to the place that I am this morning. So incredibly thankful, in so many different aspects of the word.
I know that no matter what happens on this earth I will ALWAYS have my faith, my unreal husband and my precious baby boy. Those are all that I need to survive. I know that nothing can take away my faith and if something tragic were to happen that would take away the beings of my husband or son, nothing can take away the experiences that I've had with both. I have experienced love on this earth from both of them that can NEVER be beat.
To realize all of this over this past week and to have taken the time to process it and stew over it has been so refreshing. I somewhat feel invincible. Nothing can tackle me. Nothing can strip me of what is vital to me. My God has instilled in me all that I need to love Him and trust in Him and He has given me all that I need to love and adore my family. Why do I find it so hard to TRUST in my God at times? Every single time I remember to TRUST Him and lean on Him. There is always a sense of stabilty and peace and "everything is going to be ok"-idness. Therefore, I am so thankful. Who cares if our house doesn't sell and we end up with no money. Who cares if we cut our salaries in half to go after a dream. Who cares even if that dream fails. We know why we went after it in the first place and will never regret that. We will always be able to at least get by financially. In wordly ways, we may struggle some. But, the important thing is that our hearts are always full and always overflowing so that we may always be able to give from them. To share everything in our hearts so that others may feel love the way that we get to feel love.
To sum this all up.....I am thankful for my God who loves me and provides for me. I am thankful for my strong yet tender husband. I am thankful for this little ball of love of a son that I have. But, mostly, I am thankful for stress. This stress reminds me of everything I have that can never be taken from me. And after this time passes, we will all still have each other. At the fact (not risk...fact) of being cheezy.....I encourage you to take a second and think about what cannot be taken from you. What do you possess in your heart that is so concrete that it could never be chipped away at? What are you thankful for today? To realize it will make you feel invincible.
Surprise! It's Courtney writing today. I am not as talented as my husband at blogging, but this morning I have the urge to do so.
I was just reading something this morning that made me stop for a minute and even though Thanksgiving has already passed, a huge wave of thankfulness just swept through my body. And while it brings such joy and peace to my heart, it also makes me ache for others. Either those who aren't as fortunate or for those who are but for some reason can't see what they have.
Most of you who know Jarod, Liam and me well know that we have 2 houses (one that won't sell), 3 cars (again...one that we need to sell), a new baby (NO!, not for sale), downsized careers, maternity leave and we are trying to open a business at the same time. Money is getting tight and stress levels are rising. Just this past week the stress has really started setting in. Even to the point where Jarod and I got frustrated with each other (which honestly happens like once a year). It's the first time in a while that we have stress to the level of our chests tightening and I have to say I somewhat like it. Yep. I said I like it.
It has made me think and pray and analyze and think and pray. All of this thinking, praying and analyzing has brought me to the place that I am this morning. So incredibly thankful, in so many different aspects of the word.
I know that no matter what happens on this earth I will ALWAYS have my faith, my unreal husband and my precious baby boy. Those are all that I need to survive. I know that nothing can take away my faith and if something tragic were to happen that would take away the beings of my husband or son, nothing can take away the experiences that I've had with both. I have experienced love on this earth from both of them that can NEVER be beat.
To realize all of this over this past week and to have taken the time to process it and stew over it has been so refreshing. I somewhat feel invincible. Nothing can tackle me. Nothing can strip me of what is vital to me. My God has instilled in me all that I need to love Him and trust in Him and He has given me all that I need to love and adore my family. Why do I find it so hard to TRUST in my God at times? Every single time I remember to TRUST Him and lean on Him. There is always a sense of stabilty and peace and "everything is going to be ok"-idness. Therefore, I am so thankful. Who cares if our house doesn't sell and we end up with no money. Who cares if we cut our salaries in half to go after a dream. Who cares even if that dream fails. We know why we went after it in the first place and will never regret that. We will always be able to at least get by financially. In wordly ways, we may struggle some. But, the important thing is that our hearts are always full and always overflowing so that we may always be able to give from them. To share everything in our hearts so that others may feel love the way that we get to feel love.
To sum this all up.....I am thankful for my God who loves me and provides for me. I am thankful for my strong yet tender husband. I am thankful for this little ball of love of a son that I have. But, mostly, I am thankful for stress. This stress reminds me of everything I have that can never be taken from me. And after this time passes, we will all still have each other. At the fact (not risk...fact) of being cheezy.....I encourage you to take a second and think about what cannot be taken from you. What do you possess in your heart that is so concrete that it could never be chipped away at? What are you thankful for today? To realize it will make you feel invincible.
4 comments:
Court- Thanks for taking the time to chare these feelings...they are very refereshing to me! I love you and now love you even more!!!
Thanks so much for sharing your feelings of thankfulness, and mostly for sharing your feelings of stress. Stress is something we all deal with!! It is very refreshing and encouraging to hear someone put things in perspective and just live and let God....just be invincible!!!
Hope you guys are coming to the ACS Christmas party Sat.!! Can' wait to meet you!!
:)April (Bill's wife)
Courtney,
I love checking in on the blog occasionally to see what you and little Liam are up to...The pictures and writings are always so beautiful. This morning however, sitting here in my chair, I read your note and it brought tears to my eyes. (which I had to hide as my coworkers walked by so that they didnt make fun of me for crying like they love to do. :) )But... You are right. There is so much in life to be thankful for, despite whatever it is that makes it seem like life is using us as a punching bag. We have been given so many blessings. However, I admire you so much for the comment about stress. I have never considered being thankful for stress...but you are exactly right. I thank you for your inspiring words. I needed a swift kick this morning, and I found it. I hope that you have a wonderful day and hope to see you and Little Liam soon.
Natalie
So amazingly beautiful.
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